Since YOU bin gone……

Since YOU bin gone……

I don’t understand why people who take rational decisions most of the time loose their brain to take important decisions irrationally when in Love. My life is similar to what one would call ‘Story of faded GLORY’ because of these irrationalities.

Someone once told me that whatever you do or whatever you become in life, you at least need a person back home with whom you can share your piece of mind. After living in Germany for the past 4 months, I realised that Life is not about existing but about living. One needs to complete the circle of life.

I never thought I would meet someone after she left my life. I have always lived in yesterday but this time it was special, I actually thought about future with HER. I once got drunk and called HER to tell HER that SHE is not the person I would spend my life with, prob. to honour my EGO, but things changed drastically after that.

Like other people, I also started taking decisions which many of you would consider irrational. Since SHE is working, I needed to settle fast, so I thought of dropping my masters and joining IMS asap so as to come on my feet. I had my future plans altered just for HER. I thought of dropping my plans for MBA and getting an expat work-X on my resume to get a better job back home. Yesterday, I even went online to book a flight to India to be back with her to tell her how I feel about her. Truthfully speaking, I would have gone ahead with it BUT ....

A couple of days ago, one of my X msged me saying that she wants to be back with me. Yesterday when I called her to tell my decision, I would be someone special soon, at about same time SHE told me that it cannot work out between us as SHE is being pressured by HER parents to get married. Well initially I thought that I would talk to HER about it and try to convince her to talk to HER parents but then I thought it’s HER decision in the end and deciding it for HER would morally presumptuous.

Well I don’t know how to tell HER that Future with HER would be amazing as SHE very well completes me as a person. SHE is smart, beautiful and the most imp. The ONE with whom I can share my peace of mind. But like past I have left decision to HER….